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Sava700 · Post by **Sava700** » Mon Oct 16, 2006 1:23 am

WTF when did I miss this thread... sorry to hear all this stuff.. hope you hang in there! Keep upgrading yourself just like you all that hardware!

Jamie_R · Post by **Jamie_R** » Mon Oct 16, 2006 11:13 am

I missed it too

Hang in there Rivas ... praying for you bro!

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 1:27 am

Thank you guys

Tomorrow they are gonna do tests before next treatment to see if something has changed.
I really love their tests

If not i can take a short break, continue or go with 25% stronger doses but in that case i have to sign papers just so i'm not gonna sue them if i get kidney failure, bone density, heart attack or permanent brain damage.I just saw the papers, wasnt really interested reading them,i'm scared already good enough i will sign them all what the hell.If i loose then i will loose.At least it will go faster.So maybe on the end you are gonna deal with retard on the boards for awhile.

MissTynker2 · Post by **MissTynker2** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 1:35 am

rivas wrote:Thank you guys

Tomorrow they are gonna do tests before next treatment to see if something has changed.
I really love their tests
If not i can take a short break, continue or go with 25% stronger doses but in that case i have to sign papers just so i'm not gonna sue them if i get kidney failure, bone density, heart attack or permanent brain damage.I just saw the papers, wasnt really interested reading them,i'm scared already good enough i will sign them all what the hell.If i loose then i will loose.At least it will go faster.So maybe on the end you are gonna deal with retard on the boards for awhile.

Hey You! You hold your head up PROUD!! You have done very well, and WILL continue to do so!! If you need that slight slow down...then by all means take it!! Each individual person is different...you do what you NEED to do!!

As far as speedguide putting up with retards, hey! they put up with me every day

and we are here for you!!! Keep fighting, keep that positive attitude, and keep smilin', most of all...remember...this is only a temporary situation...You CAN do this!

Roody · Post by **Roody** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 8:21 am

Hang in there man.

Ken · Post by **Ken** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 8:46 am

Hoping and praying the best for you.
Ken

David · Post by **David** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 8:47 am

rivas wrote:If i loose then i will loose.At least it will go faster.So maybe on the end you are gonna deal with retard on the boards for awhile.

Abandon any negative thoughts or energies. You will recover. Be certain of all your options. Healing requires a rapport with your physicians. If you are not comfortable with them, seek others.

Like with your critters, eat well and take your vitamins. The body requires fuel to fight.

Be well, Erik

david

tao_jones · Post by **tao_jones** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 8:57 am

I hate to hear this. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 12:43 pm

Thank you guys very much
Just going over there, we are leaving in a few, wish me luck.
I'm gonna kill this ****er in my head i'm promising you

Sarahnn · Post by **Sarahnn** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 1:30 pm

Prayer just went up, Rivas.

God bless ya real good!!!!

Spammy · Post by **Spammy** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 1:31 pm

rivas wrote:Thank you guys very much
Just going over there, we are leaving in a few, wish me luck.
I'm gonna kill this ****er in my head i'm promising you

Good luck pal.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 6:08 pm

Uff today it was short i was back around 12, took a nap and gonna eat something now.Nothing has changed, all is same, i signed up (hope i didnt sign my death) all the papers and next week is gonna be tough.Dont wanna end up like my aunt, she had brain cancer and she died.Even after 20 years i can see her in the bed, looking like beef jerky, dry and skinny, only bones

Anyway i have positive attitude, like i said i'm not gonna loose

6+ more treatments 2 each week with stronger doses.
My fam doctor gave me last week (he said it may help me to make the side effects better) Valtrex or whatever its called and they said it's not gonna help me, its like taking sugar pills.
Also i printed the papers what Philip gave me doc took them and he said he will take a look later now we have something more important to do

If i will start talking/writing like MAd_Haggis you know its not going well

Sorry man i'm just trying to have some fun

Doctors are great they are taking good care of me.

Lefty · Post by **Lefty** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 7:04 pm

I just read an article that may pertain to you. It spoke on the view that women, (I know you are not) that were recieving treatment for cancer did better when they excercised because their blood had more oxygen. I dont have a link, but will look for it. Just something to think about. God bless.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 8:19 pm

Lefty wrote:I just read an article that may pertain to you. It spoke on the view that women, (I know you are not) that were recieving treatment for cancer did better when they excercised because their blood had more oxygen. I dont have a link, but will look for it. Just something to think about. God bless.

Thanks if you could find it, it would be great.

When i was talking with my family doctor he said this is BS.
When i brought it over to the hospital my ear specialist (the one who sent me for MRI and found tumor because i was going for shunt surgery and he wanted to eliminate all other possibilities) said its very likely the vitamins were keeping it from not growing but he cant be 100% sure, its only his opinion and he could be wrong, thats what he said.One thing is sure even with diabettes i'm sick (flu and stuffs like that) 1x every 2 years and it healed my eyes because i had diabettes there already.Using the vitamins 2nd year nonstop.The only thing what i have to buy from states are the bioflavanoids and vinpocetine because its not available over here.

Oh yeah and when they diagnosed me with MM i also bought Meniett Device ($5000 bucks), freaking expansive but didnt help me even little bit.Why ? Because i do not have MM disease.

CableDude · Post by **CableDude** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 9:09 pm

Maybe you already mentioned this but, Have you thought about seeking a second opinion?

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 11:43 pm

CableDude wrote:Maybe you already mentioned this but, Have you thought about seeking a second opinion?

What 2nd opinion do i need when they diagnosed me with cancer and i'm already on chemo ?
You know how long are people waiting for MRI ? 6-9 months.I got it in 2 weeks.Same with Cat scans.
I had at least 9 different ear and nose specialists and was listening to them and every one of them was saying something else.This was going on 2 years.Finally one of the doctors recommended me for meniere disease specialist.He did right a way hearing tests and balance test (you are in bed and they start filling your ear with warm water and you have some kind of detectors all over your head and after few seconds you get dizzy like hell) and it was strange that after 2 years my hearing and balance are still perfect.He sent me to 2 cat scans, they were ok so he decided to go for MRI before he does shunt surgery.Mri found small tumor right behind my right ear pressing on ear sack or whatever its called.Then they did zillions of blood tests.
He sent me to neurologist and neurologist sent me over to bunch of doctors in nuclear medicine department(oncology).And now i'm stuck there.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Tue Oct 17, 2006 11:56 pm

Oh ya and i forgot to add, thanks to my family doctor he was feeding me with Serc 24mg and diuretics for over a year.AT least one of the ear doctor gave me diuretics which were really working.

Pettos · Post by **Pettos** » Wed Oct 18, 2006 12:16 am

Hang in there man, stay strong, you'll pull through it.

I'll keep praying for you

Stay Strong man.

knightmare · Post by **knightmare** » Wed Oct 18, 2006 7:08 pm

Jimmy V- ( Jim Valvano, former NC state coach) had a motto--

"Never Give Up, Never Give Up".

I see you have that mentality Rivas, you're a fighter, and you will be ok.
Prayers go out to you, and your family my friend....

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Wed Oct 18, 2006 7:31 pm

knightmare wrote:Jimmy V- ( Jim Valvano, former NC state coach) had a motto--

"Never Give Up, Never Give Up".

I see you have that mentality Rivas, you're a fighter, and you will be ok.
Prayers go out to you, and your family my friend....

ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Was thinking about interupting it but ...i would die, i will NEVER GIVE UP.
Thanks bro

Debbie · Post by **Debbie** » Wed Oct 18, 2006 9:12 pm

rivas wrote:ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Was thinking about interupting it but ...i would die, i will NEVER GIVE UP.
Thanks bro

You better not!!

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Thu Oct 19, 2006 1:20 am

Debbie wrote:You better not!!

I wont

Who will be teasing you then ?

Debbie · Post by **Debbie** » Thu Oct 19, 2006 6:39 am

rivas wrote:I wont
Who will be teasing you then ?

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Fri Oct 20, 2006 12:09 am

Just so everyone know i'm feeling good in last 2 days, no vomitting, vertigo only one thing bothers me and that is i'm very tired and sleepy, and my left side started hurting i think its kidney i have to ask monday, i have to take 2-3 naps a day.Sometimes they are short sometimes veeery long.
Maybe because i have been always busy with something and my mind was completely somewhere else.
It didnt end yet, i didnt win yet, but i hope i will.
Trying to gain weight back i dont think i will i'm skinny/athletic build (Debbie knows

) but we will see.I have still 3 days left before next 2 horrible treatments again but i'm getting used to it slowly but for sure

MissTynker2 · Post by **MissTynker2** » Fri Oct 20, 2006 1:43 am

[quote="rivas"]Just so everyone know i'm feeling good in last 2 days, no vomitting, vertigo only one thing bothers me and that is i'm very tired and sleepy, and my left side started hurting i think its kidney i have to ask monday, i have to take 2-3 naps a day.Sometimes they are short sometimes veeery long.
Maybe because i have been always busy with something and my mind was completely somewhere else.
It didnt end yet, i didnt win yet, but i hope i will.
Trying to gain weight back i dont think i will i'm skinny/athletic build (Debbie knows ]

Please do not fret about the being tired part, nor the naps. That is a very normal reaction to chemo, and only temporary. Along with all those ugly little critters the chemo is chasing away, unfortunately, it chases away some of the good guys as well, which in turns zaps your energy too! The good guys always win out, right?

and they will return, I promise you. Sleeping is another way of the body healing itself..enjoy your naps!

Iffen ya get a handle on that weight thing...SHARE!! lol!! My new surgeon said he would gladly donate 20 pounds...only another 20 to go after that...piece of cake, or two or three or...

Debbie · Post by **Debbie** » Fri Oct 20, 2006 7:19 am

[quote="rivas"]Just so everyone know i'm feeling good in last 2 days, no vomitting, vertigo only one thing bothers me and that is i'm very tired and sleepy, and my left side started hurting i think its kidney i have to ask monday, i have to take 2-3 naps a day.Sometimes they are short sometimes veeery long.
Maybe because i have been always busy with something and my mind was completely somewhere else.
It didnt end yet, i didnt win yet, but i hope i will.
Trying to gain weight back i dont think i will i'm skinny/athletic build (Debbie knows ]
Keep on supporting your body nutritionally while you are going through the treatments. That is so important! Keep the faith!!

Randy · Post by **Randy** » Sat Oct 21, 2006 12:23 am

have a glass of apple juice

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Sat Oct 21, 2006 12:45 am

omg 2 more days and then it starts again, i dont have veins anymore on my hands so they are injecting it from other side of my palms

Sometimes it hurts so much i wish i can grab some piece of metal and stick it through his/her head the pain is so bad

Ya i just had apple juice

Jamie_R · Post by **Jamie_R** » Sat Oct 21, 2006 7:07 am

hang in there man ... you're gonna get through this!

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Mon Oct 23, 2006 4:16 pm

Thanks Jamie.
I just come back from next treatment 1 hour ago.So far i feel ok just little bit dizzy, headache like hell but no vomitting.
Of course i'm gonna make it, thank you for your support, everyone.
Time for nap in a few ....

Debbie · Post by **Debbie** » Mon Oct 23, 2006 4:37 pm

Hang in there Rivas.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Mon Oct 23, 2006 5:25 pm

Debbie wrote:Hang in there Rivas.

I do.
Just received Phone call from Radiology, they are gonna do complete MRI, from top to bottom November 9th to make sure its not spreaded somewhere else too.
I know it isnt, god please i hope it isnt, if it is i'm giving up, i have saved 600mg valium just in case because It is better to die on your feet
than to live on your knees. But wtf i had 3 MRI's already.

sito · Post by **sito** » Tue Oct 24, 2006 6:42 pm

Man, you hang in and win. I can't imagine... just never give up. I've seen a few 'round these parts beat it, so I'm not too worried, you'll beat it down as they did. Good days ahead.

Jamie_R · Post by **Jamie_R** » Tue Oct 24, 2006 7:50 pm

rivas wrote:I do.
Just received Phone call from Radiology, they are gonna do complete MRI, from top to bottom November 9th to make sure its not spreaded somewhere else too.
I know it isnt, god please i hope it isnt, if it is i'm giving up, i have saved 600mg valium just in case because It is better to die on your feet
than to live on your knees. But wtf i had 3 MRI's already.

still praying for you bro ...

keep your head up

Lefty · Post by **Lefty** » Tue Oct 24, 2006 8:00 pm

rivas wrote:I do.
Just received Phone call from Radiology, they are gonna do complete MRI, from top to bottom November 9th to make sure its not spreaded somewhere else too.
I know it isnt, god please i hope it isnt, if it is i'm giving up, i have saved 600mg valium just in case because It is better to die on your feet
than to live on your knees. But wtf i had 3 MRI's already.

Take care Rivascio. I have a good feeling about this. I wll keep praying for you and Misty.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 1:06 am

To tell you the truth its not as easy as i it looks like.I'm not gonna play here drama queen but its hard.I'm still hanging and hoping for the best, thank you all.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 1:08 am

Lefty wrote:Take care Rivascio. I have a good feeling about this. I wll keep praying for you and Misty.

MissTynker2 · Post by **MissTynker2** » Wed Oct 25, 2006 7:30 pm

Hang in there!!

Rest when you need, and as much as you need...it is all a healing process. The nutrition part as already mentioned is very very important as well, even if you do not feel like eating at times, then make sure you take a very good multivitamin & mineral substitute every single day. Be good to yourself!! Give yourself special treats, especially after a treatment. The mind is a powerful asset....take care of it as well.

Rivas · Post by **Rivas** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 3:29 pm

MissTynker2 wrote:Hang in there!! Rest when you need, and as much as you need...it is all a healing process. The nutrition part as already mentioned is very very important as well, even if you do not feel like eating at times, then make sure you take a very good multivitamin & mineral substitute every single day. Be good to yourself!! Give yourself special treats, especially after a treatment. The mind is a powerful asset....take care of it as well.

Yes i do, its very important part but what bothers me the most is i'm home 95% of the time.I will wait after the radiology if they will find out something new

and also if the tumor is getting smaller.After that even when i feel bad on mondays and tuedsays (i actually snaped at my friends yesterday pretty bad, but they knew i have bad day) i think i need to get out maybe find some part time job 2 days a week.I hope i'm not gonna pass out over there lol.
I'm not counting treatments but i think i had over 10 of them i'm just skin and bones fing poison to tell you the truth.
Anyway thanks misty, appreciate your support guys.
And yes at least i have my tortoises they keep me so happy watching them eat and soaking them in water, my little lovely critters.

tHE_0ne · Post by **tHE_0ne** » Thu Oct 26, 2006 8:15 pm

Hang in there man, sorry to hear about what your going threw sounds like hell, let me know if you need anything